I love my job. Really, really love my job. I don't even think of it as a "job", but more as a lifestyle. I get up every day and go do my thing. And it makes me happy.
But still, for all that, working is necessary. We can't afford for me not to earn a paycheck. It's not even something to consider.
I hear and read about a lot of other women who claim that they sacrifice so much so that they can stay home with their kids.
I think it's women like ME who are sacrificing. I'm not willing to
not have a family just because I must earn a living, so I reluctantly send my little girls to daycare.
Daycare sucks.
Daycare gets the best of my girls. While I'm away teaching other people's kids, I don't get to nurture, teach, or care for my own. That's a sacrifice. I'm putting all my hopes into the idea that I can make up for that in the evenings and on weekends, but it's the biggest gamble. You don't get do-overs if you screw up the first 5 years.
I think being a mom is THE most important thing a person can be. Moms who stay home by choice, whose lifestyles can make that happen, are so lucky. So they give up nicer cell-phones or highlights or whatever. So what.
I give up something I can't even put into words, and it breaks my heart.
