Supernova

I have always, always tried to be a kind, warm-hearted, nice-to-everyone type of person. I think that friendly smiles and kind words are too rare in today's world, but I live my life by them. And I conciously think about them every day.

So, it is all the more devastating to me when I realize that something I've said or done has been hurtful to someone else. Doesn't matter to me whether that someone is family member, friend, colleague, or even a stranger. I can't stand knowing that I've made somebody else feel bad.

This week was particularly difficult for me. At one point, I was so wrapped up in how I felt, that I didn't realize that my flippant, sarcastic remarks were affecting others. I didn't realize that I hurt feelings until it was too late. And sometimes an apology, however sincere, can't undo that.

So I have to remind myself that, although I am at the center of my universe, it's not mine alone. I'm surrounded by all manner of celestial wonders. Aristotle taught that the Universe is made of three elements...Matter, Form, and Change (how Matter becomes altered).

I don't want to affect destructive change on people in my universe. I don't want to become so wrapped up in my own viewpoint, or focus so heavily on my own feelings that I alter those around me in a bad way...changing how they feel, how they view themselves, and who they become inside.

If you think about it, the most beautiful supernova is really just an internal explosion. The brightest shooting star is only a broken piece of a meteor burning itself out. I would be brokenhearted if something I said were to dull the shine of another person. I need to watch what I say, and how I say it.

"Your beliefs become your thoughts.
Your thoughts become your words.
Your words become your actions.
Your actions become your habits.
Your habits become your values.
Your values become your destiny."
Mahatma Gandhi

Who do I want to be? I want to be....better. And I resolve to be.